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Originally Posted by dizgirl2011
Hi Lizzy,
I am so sorry to hear this happened. Although you say that he didn't force you and that you wanted it to happen at the time, he was still in a powerful position and you were the vulnerable one coming to him for help and from that aspect, it is still very much abuse and you have every right to feel as upset as you do.
I am glad that he has been deregistered but that doesn't stop your pain and the pain of unfortunately we don't know how many more. He took advantage of someone in need of closeness.
I think you have been incredibly brave to seek therapy again and I hope that once you can build up some level of trust that they will be able to help you. As with any situation, therapy doesn't make it instantly better, so sometimes there is a low before we come out of it which may explain why you arent feeling better with therapy.
It is going to be hard also as being in therapy may be triggering but I hope you can get the help you need.
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Thank you for your words of kindness and encouragement dizgirl2011. I don't see myself as being brave by seeking therapy. Seeking therapy is something that I must do to come to begin to heal and to move on in my life. I trusted and relied on my former therapist for 20 years of my life. I learned to rely on him as being the father that I never had. Now I have to let go of him and of the past and move on in my life. I realise that it wont be easy but my current therapist seems to understand my needs and has enrolled me in attending group sessions specialising in Emotional Management. Initially I will be attending a ten week progam from the hours of 9.15am to 2.30pm. This program will includes assisting in developing mastery over emotional distress. Core Mindfulness Skills are the focus on the the group. Depending how I feel after completing this program I will attend a 30 week DBT program which is designed to focus on how to tolerate overwhelming distress, to be assertive, to understand and manage emotions, to reduced self-destructive behaviours and to improve self worth and sense of self.