One, I have been good with "checking myself" with emotional thinking and talking to another (S/O in particular).

Two, I did not just sit and wait and be told "what to do" for my missing package, I took the assertiveness and called who I needed, and got a case opened, and contacted the seller that post office messed up; but after that gets resolved, I will leave them feed back.

Three, I did manage to get a little sleep before coming to work.

Four, I fixed the coffee machine, but what does that matter- Since the tech is coming out tomorrow to "fix it up"... I wish there as more communication, the machine just needed a good cleaning, which we can do- Now we will be charged for them to look at it. But why do I care, this is a MultiBillion or what not corporation.. oh I care because they furlough us when they don't meet their quarterly quota- that's why.

Five, this was before the coffee machine. but important- My S/O Tossed a cap off a bottle; I was disappointed and little annoyed but I told him it was ok- I have been asking him for at least a day - no since the weekend, to keep the caps; I am entering the contest and need as many as I can have.... He read my face, said sorry, he wouldn't take pop to work any more-- I told him no, not to do that, I bought the pop partially for him to take to work since it was cheaper to buy this way than at work.... that he could take the pop just to remember to keep the cap He suggested a splendid idea--- to just switch the cap with an old cap and not a contest cap before he leaves home

Sigh, I have been trying to remind myself I am not looser, i feel like one though off an on... I feel really mixed after waking up. Ok but not ok, awesome, but yet a loser. hard to explain.