So, I was enrolled in college classes concurrently while I was a senior in high school. I started college the fall after I graduated from high school, lived in the dorms, and made good grades for the first year. After I moved out of the dorms, I lived alone and became extremely depressed. I started withdrawing, dropping, failing all of my classes. I did this two semesters in a row and eventually lost my scholarship and financial aid status.

Now I'm in the process of paying the school back $1k I owe on my bursar so that I can enroll this fall.

If I can do well the first semester back, I'll be eligible for financial aid again and can work less, focus more on school, and hopefully finish my degree. I'm declared a major in Anthropology and hope to minor in French or Environmental Studies. My lifelong dream is to be a world-traveling writer but I'll settle for a research position at an international institution or a managerial position at a non-profit organization somewhere outside of the U.S.

I've always wanted to help people and see the world, just didn't know exactly how to go about that. I'm so at odds with my identity and my mood swings keep me from following through with things I start to work on; it's extremely frustrating. I get bursts of creativity and motivation to write, carry out projects, start new hobbies, lose weight and get in shape, etc., but it only lasts a few weeks before I lose interest in everything and sleep for days on end. So yes, college was a difficult time for me the first time around; this time will probably not be much easier after being out of school for over a year now.

I really hope I can stay with it this time.