I agree with the above! Don't pass up the chance to further your education, when it is so important to you, just because those around you make you uncomfortable or self-conscious about it. You are smart, dedicated, and deserve the chance to advance in your studies.

I think you should interact with your lecturers more, get to know them and help them to know you better. Have a working relationship with them if possible. If they know you more as a person and vice versa, your "paranoia" --whether delusional or not--will begin to dissipate and you will have less anxiety about the whole honours process, I believe.

Stick with it!

-K