hello
can anyone tell me what sort of questions i might be asked tomorrow when i see a pdoc to 'rule out' an eating disorder? is he going to ask me what i eat every day or about my past or...? is he going to send me to a doctor for a check up or tell me to come back to see him? how long is the appointment likely to be? is he going to ask about physical stuff like if i get stomach aches or throw up blood or have sore throats? cos i dont know how to answer those! sometimes i think i taste blood after but i never see any and yes sometimes my throat is sore like today its killing me but that could just be a cold or something. and maybe i get a sore tummy from stress or something not from food/lack of food/purging. omg i cant handle this right now. im on anti anxiety/depression meds too. should i mention that? i cant mess this up by sitting there not able to talk or just saying im fine and minimising. what if he tells me i dont have an eating disorder? hes going to take one look at how fat and disgusting i am and think theres no way i could have one. then im left to deal with all of this by myself! im so scared i can hardly think straight. i feel so totally useless and feicing fragile. what if i end up in tears? i only saw a pdoc once before and she was so harsh and blunt and aggressive and dismissive. what if i do what i usually do and end up putting on my armour so i come across totally capable and confident like most people see me and he doesnt see that inside im falling apart?

please someone help. i feel really alone in this.