I feel completely out of it. So tired, like I haven't slept, but can't fall asleep. My sister is worried about me. I told her I was hearing and seeing things. I cry a lot when I'm not home. I feel safe, generally, at home. I told my dad yesterday that I need to quit working. I'm doing that half for me and half for him. For me, I feel like I'm heading down a crazy, dark spiral and I need to focus on taking care of myself. For him, I feel he deserves a more dependable employee. I miss work a lot, especially because of my depression and anxiety. But just talking to him about it made me cry.

I feel empty, hollow, disconnected from the world.