A baby is thee greatest blessing ever! .... But it will consume you, your life and your time for many years to come, unless you plan on dropping it in the arms of a nanny after you give birth.

Seriously it will, you can't even take a dump without consulting baby first! i.e. Is baby safely in the crib...etc.

I love my daughter to bits, I'd lay down my life for her in a blink of an eye, no questions asked. But I won't deny that parenting is hard work, it is a challenge that needs to be mastered, but with ever changing rules.

Just when you mastered this tiny baby who's skin can tear and needs a routine so baby can learn to sleep through the night, gotit great! Then baby reaches a milestone and is teething, so now you have sad, screaming baby who's gums are on fire and baby is back to not sleeping! So you master crabby baby and then baby can crawl, so you have to learn new strategies, because baby needs different types of safety precautions, then you master this, and now suddenly baby is climbing up things it shouldn't be...and on and on it goes with each developmental stage. You have to grow as a parent and reach parental milestones in order to keep up with your child.

My head is currently spinning because I need to figure out how to tell a 9y.o where babies really come from! So yes, hard hard work, and this is coming from someone with a stellar support system where my daughter is concerned...

If the depression doesn't lift, or gets worse, you will need one hellava support system to help you cope as well as parent. Because as cute as they are, they can drive us nutso like nothing on Earth

I'm in favour of Rose's suggestion to take a year or 2 and prepare yourself for having a baby. IMO, that way when you do have a baby, she / he doesn't arrive with strings attached (your expectant happiness) and you will be in a much better place to be the best mother you possibly can be. This is a healthier and more balanced choice and will benefit all 3 parties involved.

That being said I can't tell you what to do, I can only share my insights and experience.

Idk if this is solely your idea or hubby's idea or if there are other reasons or influences that cause you to want a baby to make you happy, but I always tell people;

Be careful of making life changing decisions based on what others expect or want from you because ONLY YOU live with the consequences.

I have to say this though, kudos to you for reaching out and asking for insight, because I have a friend who impulsively got pregnant to "save her relationship" and that didn't turn out well for anyone. If only she had asked for some insightful input beforehand. Again, I'm not saying don't have a baby, I'm saying its wise that you reached out first so that you can make an informed decision