For me, a part of therapy is allowing my T to see me in my most difficult places. It's tempting to give in to social pressures to hide when feeling like a mess. It might also be an opportunity to experience a different kind of support and/or connection with your T.

If you regret it, I'd encourage you to contact your T and see if there is still a slot available. You can let him know about your hesitation around "playing games with the time slot" if you think it would help you feel better about it.