ok I have no idea what to do and I need some honest advice! I have recently been diagnosed bipolar on top of other things and was on meds for about 4months when I decided to quit because shrink was messing with my meds and not listening to the side effects so I stopped them all about 2 month ago. I am not taking anything now but friends on here and some friends from church who know me think I need to go back on something... others are saying that I can do it without....I keep aiming towards starting the lithium (since my reg dr gave me a script 2 months ago) but then something stops me!!!! I don't know wht to do and I know some of this is repeated but I am so lost, confused, thoughts racing, deep depressions and yes probably suicidal too....some of my non bipolar friends are so frustrated with trying to help me that I have basically been leaving them alone and have gone back into my shell like a turtle!!!! They are saying I just NEED to snap out of it!!!!!! I wish I could!! I could through an hour or 2 here and there trying to make myself have energy and get laundry and things done but yet I never finish them!!!! I don't know!!! it would be so easy to just say the hey with this entire fight!!!!
Please if you have sarcastic or negative repiles to say, just keep them to yourself because it only makes me feel worse....the one I am talking about has made me thing about not even posting this!!! anyways maybe I should not have include this last part but then again I have nothing to lose at this point!!!!!!!!!!!