I think first and for most you need to see a Pdoc not a regular GP.. GP's just do not know enough about mental illness and medications to be effective. Yes it does take longer to get in to see a pdoc , but seems the most logical choice. I am sorry your are feeling so overwhelmed and upset and rightly so.

Personally for me I can not take any AD's as they all just flip me right into an ugly mania.

I hope you can find a pdoc that can get you in sooner rather than later, Things can and will improve , it just takes time.

Keep posting here and hopefully the support you receive will help carry your though until you get into a pdoc and can start to sort out a treatment plan.

Stay safe