Heya

Can I say congrats with the therapy and so glad it's helping you. It can be so much work, so really pleased for you that you're feeling better.

And your mum.. am sorry. In an ideal world, our parent's should be our biggest fans - there to help us, guide us, and be there - even when they tell us stuff we don't want to here about our personalities.

But there are ways to say these things, and really, there is no excuse to mean to you, nor to threaten you with institutions or to throw you out. These words can make things seem very shaky, make a person feel insecure and it's hard not to be so very hurt.

I am afraid that if therapy with your mum isnt working, then all you can do is try not to raise to the bait and bide your time. If living with your father (instant solution) isn't doable, then the best thing is to work hard at school, try and get the best education you can, and then when you are old enough you'll be able to get a good job and afford to leave home. I know it feels like forever, but it may make you feel better to have a goal to work towards, give you a little bit of the control back with your life. When you have left home, things will be different. You'll be an adult, and you are then in a position to keep your mum at arms length, and see her when you want to and feel like it. You won't hear mean things all the time either.

Am sorry that you've a mother who is difficult. It's not fair and nobody at your age should be feeling the way you do, nor have to listen to cruel words.

Hugs.