I've been psychotic before and from being the Anti-Christ to Jesus to Santa Clause to Joseph father of Jesus I had quite the trip. Believing I had three wishes and that people were after my family history and other such things. It only lasted 3 weeks. I don't know how anyone could have it longer yet alone for years without brian damage. I feel I've lost a lot. I don't know how it can go off and on. I've only been manic once and now I'm diagnosed as being bipolar. You should get help if these feelings continue, you don't know what you might think of next in a psychotic state. I hope it turns out well for you. Good luck.