I had these two very short "happenings" both in 2011 and I now do not know whether to "DSM" them (catalog them, pathologize them, etc.) or simply... enjoy.
1) While on high dosages of multiple meds, I started reading a long poem that I used to know by heart because it was part of my HS literature curriculum. All of a sudden though I started seeing in the poem what I had not seen earlier, and, at some point, it seemed to me that the snowstorm from the poem started to fill the room, right off the words on the laptop's screen. I did know that the snowstorm did not fill the room, but so it seemed.
2) While being off drugs for a few days, it started to seem that large city buildings danced (it was in a real snowstorm) on the streets, and, in my head, a poem started composing itself, about the joy of my blood that was released from Lithium's grasp and was dancing in my veins and arteries. Slightly different poem lines were going through my mind as if I were trying to see which was best.
Both events were quite short. I would not remember the poem now. I never wrote it down.
So - psychosis/mania or not? Or just enjoy life and do not question and over-analyze every freaking little thing?
Thanks!
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