Leed,
How beautifully you write. Trust is such a huge issue in addiction. Even though mine is physically over the ugre to use is amazingly strong. I can understand why my family doesn't trust me. I have to live quietly as well or I will run to the drug that ran my life. It is also hard to learn to trust another when you dont trust yourself, I am supposed to trust my pdoc which I suppose I do but it is a hard road to walk.