You are in a state of total crisis, and with suicidality running in the family, you need immediate help. Also, you must eat. If you cannot eat (I do have those moments, believe me), try to drink. I drink milk a lot which has lots of protein and hydrates me well. I also buy wholesale quantities of V8 juice at Costco (as advised on this forum) and that helps, too. Odwalla smoothies. Homemade smoothies if you have a blender.

You also need to triage your issues.

1) The issue of the man's leaving you is non-existent and all the time you spend tormenting yourself and interrogating him on that is pure waste. If he leaves you, you will THEN deal with that issue. Until it materializes itself, all your energy spent worrying is total waste. Somebody who is eating 500 calories a day and has suicidal ideation really should NOT waste her energy, OK? You do not have that luxury.

2) The schoolwork issue is valid and real, but not life-threatening. So you will eventually need to deal with it (unlike (1) above), but not right now.

3) The suicidality issue is life-threatening and urgent and needs immediate attention.

4) The 500 calories a day issue is life-threatening and urgent and needs immediate attention. If weed does not produce enough appetite, something else needs to be tried.

Also, I once used morning after pill and was very sick physically for two days, but it is hard to believe that you would have such a long lasting, severe reaction that you describe. I used emergency contraception after an acquaintance rape. You are in a relationship with a man you love so why did you use emergency contraception? You should be on a normal, regular contraception to double up the protection you get from condoms. I thought that nowadays all 20-year-old women who are in heterosexual relationships knew that...

To sum up, you need:

- regular contraception, preferably the Pill, and if you REALLY believe that you are harmed by estrogen, then the mini Pill except that it is less effective.

- food, at least liquid food; electrolytes drinks (coconut water, vitamin water, smart water) would be good for you because you probably are not hydrated enough if all you do all day long is smoke weed.

- professional help.

On a long term basis, you need to switch to marijuana edibles or vaporization because smoking weed is detrimental to the lungs, but this is not an urgent concern.

good luck and keep us posted!