It's an actual blindness. Like looking through a fog in the most literal sense. What is that? And why can't you make it go away? You blink and see visions. And they don't necessarily go away when you open your eyes. It's a dizzying kind of feeling.

You see reality. You can interact with it and kind of, sort of appear normal. Ya know... until someone tries to talk to you. You can't control the volume of your voice and you say the most stupid things. Your internal filter... the censor... seems to be broken.

If only you could just email people all day and not see your coworkers face to face they wouldn't see the wild look in your eyes. They wouldn't see you fidgeting and unable to sit still. They wouldn't see you obsessively scratching behind your ears. They wouldn't hear you stuttering or tripping over your own tongue. Oh... if only.

I don't like to see the look on everyone's faces. That... pity. I hate it.