Only you can decide if you need it right now. You last inpatient yes I was all over you to go. Your up and down alot, almost daily. Did you go back and read this entire thread and take notice of dates?
Me... looking in from the outside.. you had a great weekend with your friend recently, you have been to your sons recital, happy here, bit sad there , yesterday in Pm's you were saying you were having a good day ... Today your talking about Od'ing ... Kinda seems like intrusive thoughts, I think that is what you need to work with your Therapist on the most .

This is just my opinion .. We have known each other a long time now. I want you safe and happy and coping with intrusive thoughts that could lead you to do something rash and something that you can't reverse.

Write in your blog, open your head and let all the thoughts just fall out. hows your art therapy going ? I know that is a soothing activity for you.

There are things you can do to feel better.