If you need to vent, you can message me.
You shouldn't have to be anything other than yourself. I'm sorry you slipped; that's a tough place to be. I remember it well. It took me a long time to finally get sober, and a hell of a lot of work. My experience? Nothing is more important than putting people out of your life who will get you loaded. Exes, using/drinking buddies, toxic family or friends, etc etc. It's just not worth it. I wish you the best.