Therapists are really quite used to patients talking about suicide, even though they are not actually feeling suicidal. You can just start the conversation off by saying, you don't have to worry, I am definately NOT going to hurt myself, but I want to talk about the feelings. Talking about it will release some of that built up tension. It's OK and safe to talk about suicide. Your T will know that and understand that.

She'll probably ask some questions to be sure you are definately OK...but if you truely are not feeling suicidal, no one is going to lock you up! People need to be able to talk about all their feelings safely. Therapists know this.

Take care. Emmy

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