I cried the whole time. She too bluntly told me it was over with Chris. I'm being told to move on. I can't. I hated her.

I am calling my psychiatrist from the residential place in the morning as a last ditch attempt. He told me that if I got back and was miserable I could call him anytime and he could help work it out. Because he had differing views on the situation than heather (the one who recommended officially to cut the cord), and he technically ranks higher than her, I am hoping that he can help. I only hope he holds true to his word. I've been lied to too many times to really have much faith in humanity any more.