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Originally Posted by k12573n
So, I was enrolled in college classes concurrently while I was a senior in high school. I started college the fall after I graduated from high school, lived in the dorms, and made good grades for the first year. After I moved out of the dorms, I lived alone and became extremely depressed. I started withdrawing, dropping, failing all of my classes. I did this two semesters in a row and eventually lost my scholarship and financial aid status.
Now I'm in the process of paying the school back $1k I owe on my bursar so that I can enroll this fall.
If I can do well the first semester back, I'll be eligible for financial aid again and can work less, focus more on school, and hopefully finish my degree. I'm declared a major in Anthropology and hope to minor in French or Environmental Studies. My lifelong dream is to be a world-traveling writer but I'll settle for a research position at an international institution or a managerial position at a non-profit organization somewhere outside of the U.S.
I've always wanted to help people and see the world, just didn't know exactly how to go about that. I'm so at odds with my identity and my mood swings keep me from following through with things I start to work on; it's extremely frustrating. I get bursts of creativity and motivation to write, carry out projects, start new hobbies, lose weight and get in shape, etc., but it only lasts a few weeks before I lose interest in everything and sleep for days on end. So yes, college was a difficult time for me the first time around; this time will probably not be much easier after being out of school for over a year now.
I really hope I can stay with it this time. .gif "Sad Girl") |
Going back to college/university is a great choice that youve made and its good to see that you know what went wrong with you in the first place. A lot of people are still struggling to know what went wrong...well then down to business....
Here are some pointers that you can follow:
1. Ive seen quite a lot of kids who have performed poorly in school(some even kicked out) but they spent that year productively working in an office/factory etc and they made some money. Some had debts like you do and this led them to possess more responsibility. But nevertheless,once they do get back into school they go back to their old ways and they eventually end up performing worse than ever. Heres what you should do. I notice that you state that you get bored easily and keep switching hobbies,gym routines,study patterns etc. This is something that you have to stop consciously by yourself. Sure it might be boring after a week or so..but hey nobody makes a million dollars in a week. You will have to stick by your plan and see it through. Honestly when you do that it helps your confidence levels and im pretty sure you will get that scholarship that you seek.
2. You said that you became lonely. Go make some friends..remember they wont come and talk to you as most people in their second year already have a clique of their own. So technically your'e intruding but just use small talk,introduce yourself,ask them what they think bout the course and dont be a creepy nagging character following em around n stuff. If you do play any sports that would be a great way to make some friends. Try to spot out the class topper..most of them dont have any friends...even if they do its a real small number..( i should know..im in engineering myself). In fact being friends with a class topper ensures that your on top of your game in academics and at the same time fills the void of loneliness thats affecting you so much.
3. For the love of god, when things dont go the way theyre planned/ or when things get boring DONT GO TO SLEEP. I had this habit and trust me it starts affecting your sleep cycle and the last thing you want is to be yawning in class right in front of your prof and not pay any attention .
Listen up, im placed on RTW(Required to withdraw) and my appeals meeting is in july.My fate is going to be decided soon. Thank your stars that your not in such a bad position as i am. If i can keep a sane head and reply to your post im pretty sure you can get along with your daily activities and do well in school at the same time.
keep those grades coming and dont quit what you start till you reach the end.
good luck and god bless,
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