This past week I have not been physically well. I've been fighting it and trying not to show my family how really horrible I feel. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep it all away and wake up when I'm better.
Still not a word from my mom, but I guess I wasn't expecting anything anyway. My dad hasn't emailed me or tried to call me. But I guess that's really his personality anyway. My mom was always the one to keep up to date with what was going on with me and then tell him. If I want to talk to him or just say hi, I have to be the one to contact him.
My daughter has been quite sick as well. She is suffering from a really bad cold that just doesn't seem to want to go away. It's hard, because I can't be around her to take care of her because my immunity is so low.
I have been trying to pull it together but if I watch a depressing movie or hear a depressing song, or something else that reminds me of spending time with my mother I lose it. I mean, I feel so bad inside. I wonder if she ever has a moment where she thinks of us in a good way and is sad that things are so sour.
My dad did go to my daughters recital last weekend. My husband then to him to lunch with the kids. However, my son told me that he drove over to lunch in my dads car, and my mom had phoned my dad. He has Bluetooth so my son was able to hear everything. My dad told my mom that they were on their way to lunch and that my son was with him. Do you know that my mom didn't even say anything to my son, like hey, how are you? Noting. She just yelled at my dad saying that she has things to do and why is he going to lunch since my dad always says he rarely eats lunch.
When my son told me this, I felt so hurt and got that angry feeling again. I felt like she was being so miserable and nasty. She is such a baby, I can't stand it. To not even speak to your grandson, that is pathetic. She will probably say that he is old enough to call her since he has called her for other things in the past. But what about my four year old daughter?
Later on, I settled down. I really can't think so much about the past anymore. But it's really painful to know she is only ten minutes from me and she doesn't give a crap. She feels she is the right one and she will get everyone to think that as well. She is probably having a ball bad mouthing us to my broth, his girlfriend, or whoever else she can talk to.
It just makes me sick inside.