I am noticing that as I get older (40ish+, sort of), I am becoming more set in my ways - as we all do when we mature - but it is making it difficult for me to accept new concepts and ideas that may help me to recover from my mental illness.
I find I am not so open to "new" things as I once was to different therapies and medications, and find my skepticism rising, but in a different way than what I usually experience through my illness.
I have reached a certain level of acceptance with my illness, yet I worry that, as I get older, that 'certain level' will become, and remain stagnant as this process of being 'more set in one's ways' becomes more prominant in my personality. It is like a giving-in attitude, and since I am borderline with histrionic and narccicistic tendencies, I just know I will become much more stubborn as time goes on. I am already noticing it.
How does one counteract this "natural" narrowing of the mind with the narrowness one already experiences as a result of illness?
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"Lord, we know what we are, yet know not what we may be."
Hamlet, Act 4, sc v
Wm. Shakespeare
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