my mother hasn't spoken to me in about ten years, she was not there to support me when i became ill and had to close the nursery school i worked my butt off to open and run so successfully, or when i was caring for then grieving my late partner. she has missed out on my achievements and has no idea how successful i am at present eventhough i am severely disabled.
As far as i know she is happy in her world, happy without me in it, she has my siblings and their families in her life, and sees no reason to involve me at all.

losing a living parent is painful, it hurts like hxxl to think they do not want you, but i see it as her loss, a chance for me to prove i can be successful with out their support which i know makes me a better person than my siblings as i am independent and can survive without relying on family for things...(ok i rely on carers to get me out of bed, but that is different, a physical reliance not an emotional one!)