Yes MeaCulpa, it is much more complex.

Today is our 5 yr wedding anniversary and I just got a rejection letter from the apartment I was trying to get into. And on top of that a disconnection notice from the electric company. They said they couldn't set up a payment plan for me and I can't get the electric transferred to a new place even if I found one if I have a past due balance. So....not feeling too optimistic today.

Oh and I'm trying to get my body adjusted to being on Lithium again so the nerves are not that great to start with. I haven't been on any meds for my BP for over 5 yrs. I've also gone off of the medication for my RLS and insomnia to make sure the Lithium is going to do ok. So my sleep has suffered the last couple of nights.

Ya know, I have been trying to be optimistic the last few days because of the ones suffering in Oklahoma. I know I have no right to feel sorry for myself given that so many have lost so much , but days like today make it really hard to keep my chin up.