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I have a wonderful psychiatrist. I do not have a therapist per se .
As long as i adhere to her rules I can text her and have. Seems I may be having a mixed episode, or just a really bad rapid cycle, or both, UGH
I have never ever had one of these before. I would so remember this. I tried to eat because I feel hungry but the taste of food is making me feel ill. Odd. So I am drinking a lot and will nibble here or there I guess. That is not necessarily a bad thing, just never had it happen before. I could use to los a few, let me tell you.
I am stuttering, I have forgotten simple words or not forgotten but can't get them out. I am exaggerating things a bit but at the same time feel immense pressure.
Wow I don't like this, this sucks and go away.
I will think about a therapist but will talk to my shrink first. I have tried therapy before. Once it worked, others not so much and just made a few things way worse.
Did I mention this sucks. Probably, anyway, for those who mentioned mixed episodes, how long do they last for you? Just curious. My shrink said since this is the first one I have had from what it seems that there is no telling how long it will last. She is going to keep tabs on me through the weekend and we will go from there.
UGH Damn this to hell.
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