not much of a talker anyway. feeling like i am not participating like i should i think i have been doing something i have done as long as i can remember. i told someone yesterday that it feels like i am not in the therapy room, but am observing, as if it isn't about me at all, but about the T. For many many years i watched cautiously from doorways, gauging the atmosphere a while before entering, before risking getting involved. i think i am doing that again/still. don't know how to jump in...