((Pink santa))

I know that you aren't real keen on the idea of letting go. I am sure that it is scary for you. It is often very hard to face our fears and do what we honestly know to be the right decision for ourselves.

I'm not sure that telling your bf about your sexuality is necessary at this point. You could simply suffice it to say that his depression and guilt trips are too difficult for you to take right now. You do care about him a lot, and don't want him to ever purposely hurt himself, but you can't go on like this in life either. Healthy relationships are give and take from both sides...you have no more to give of yourself.

If your bf promises to make changes in hopes of you staying with him, or if you feel that you must tell him about your sexuality, ask yourself if it really is necessary to share this information with him. A lot of times, we unnecessarily hurt others (to get things off our minds, in hopes of feeling relieved from our distress). But this can cause that person even more pain. Does he really have to know that you're fighting with sexual feelings? Will knowing this help make him feel any better? Probably not. Knowing these things could make him feel a lot worse, and I'm sure that you wouldn't want that weighing you down further. I'm not trying to make you feel bad or guilty at all, I just want you to take that part into consideration as you plan how to break things off as painless as possible.

Best wishes to you ~ please let us know how it goes. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!