I had therapy yesterday and I got real brave and talked to my Therapist about a man that used to only see me when he wanted sex. I was raped by him a few times when I started to say no. It always felt like rape.

Anyway I spoke to my T about it and we were talking about my emotions about it and all of a sudden I just get these feelings in my body that felt like I was being raped again, just the weirdest sexual feelings in my body also.

I am confused and I have no idea about what it means? what is it? It feels really disgusting and wrong.

Please help.