update: Tuesday morning was really rough and I ended up calling my T's supervisor, who suggested a local er... went there and was admitted Tuesday evening. Just got out this afternoon. It was pretty poor experience, though it kept me safe and I got another number for specialized therapy... the combo of meds they put me on the first night gave me a mild stroke the following day, and possibly a mild heart attack, though they chose to not follow-up on it because I did not have insurance... and the dr would have followed up today, but it would have meant me staying over the weekend for a cardiology consult ans a neurology consult, so I opted out... I was ready to be out of there, half the staff were on a power trip, and most brushed off my initial complaints until I was severely tachycardic this morning... It kept me safe and interrupted the spiral, so it accomplished what I had hoped. I will not be continuing the meds they gave me... as I said, meds don't work for me... I just wish I did not fall through the cracks in the system and was able to get the help I know I need... some day it will happen... I will keep advocating for myself, and keep asking for help until I finally get what I need.