It doesnt feel like its ever going to get better,al i can do is think not only of her but of all the mistakes i keep making in my life.I still see her and i know she misses me still even though she is with somebody else.getting back together is not a realistic option anymore,so i just wish this pain would go away its like my heart is being ripped out and i dont have the energy to do anything positive anymore.I wish my med would hurry up and start working,and make me feel like i can livs agian.my sleeping pill is starting to work though so i better get into bed,at least i know the pain will be gon in few minutes.