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Old May 25, 2013, 06:31 AM
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When I've been hypomanic for a few days I tend to convince myself that I'm much better off with a new boyfriend. A smarter, faster, stronger, cooler, richer, hotter one. Maybe two. Sometimes it goes so far that I start questioning whether I ever loved my boyfriend. Then the episode ends and I'm back to loving him and not wanting to be with anyone else. It is very confusing.
This exact thing happened to me a few months ago. I was fully convinced that I had never loved my husband (we've been together 13 years) and I'd be infinitely happier with someone else. Even went so far as telling him he should move out. I can't believe I did that... I really really can't believe it.

Makes me kind of sad to think about what I did. He puts up with a lot from me... makes me cry.

If my husband were to tell me that I could only live here if I were stable, frankly I'd be terrified. In my personal experience, stable is a temporary thing. Sorry. There's going to be episodes and outbursts in the future. It's just unavoidable I think.
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