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Originally Posted by Mandrec
When I've been hypomanic for a few days I tend to convince myself that I'm much better off with a new boyfriend. A smarter, faster, stronger, cooler, richer, hotter one. Maybe two. Sometimes it goes so far that I start questioning whether I ever loved my boyfriend. Then the episode ends and I'm back to loving him and not wanting to be with anyone else. It is very confusing.
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This exact thing happened to me a few months ago. I was fully convinced that I had never loved my husband (we've been together 13 years) and I'd be infinitely happier with someone else. Even went so far as telling him he should move out. I can't believe I did that... I really really can't believe it.
Makes me kind of sad to think about what I did. He puts up with a lot from me... makes me cry.
If my husband were to tell me that I could only live here if I were stable, frankly I'd be terrified. In my personal experience, stable is a temporary thing. Sorry. There's going to be episodes and outbursts in the future. It's just unavoidable I think.
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