Thanks guys, its appreciated, but there's really nothing to be done... I don't go looking for this ********, it gets dropped in my lap. No matter what I do to live a good life, the ******** follows me around like a deranged obsessed stalker, and I want a say in the matter. I'm not prepared to do this forever or even indefinitly, so if it doesn't stop, I'm out.

How is it normal to look back at the last 10yrs of your life and just see issues, problems, crises, ********? How is that supposed to be acceptable? Is everybody's life one huge problem? Is that what life is? If it is, I DEFINITLY DON'T WANT IT. I don't and I believe its time I actually have a say in what goes on in MY life!

Sure there are good factors, Jordan is good (although she is part of my financial "problem") and bf is good. But that's just 2 good things over the last few years, and seem more like tiny glitches in my life if you compare them to the magnitude of the ******** I contend with...

PS. To the people who thought this was a lyrical game thread and joined in, its all good. You're not mind readers and I was vague.