Wink, I write a lot. If I can write it down it no longer lives inside of me, it lives on that peice of paper or in a notebook. It will always be part of me, but I don't have to hang on to all of it alone. It serves as a great record, and when you write things down stuff really starts pouring out. The things u write change, it becomes something you can share w/ a T now, or later, years from now or never. That is that has worked for me. It really sounds like you need a T to help work threw this.