i witnessed something that really hurt me the other day...


i goto a community mental health clinic.
you sit in the lobby with a whole bunch of other pretty severe people.
some not so bad.
some young.
many above 35. (not that 35 isnt young but im talking children to early 20s)
they serve mentally ill. drug addicts. MANY drug addicts and comorbid drug/mentally ill. austism. most low income. medicare/aid. etc. etc. etc...

i went up to check in for my appt and the recept. was have technical difficulties.
so a nurse and the receptionist starting talking after this semi-loud lady left and had come out crying from MY doctor trying to make an appt...
this is how the convo went...

now they were in there like nothing was happening.
i was behind the glass and the glass window was open to me.

Nur: idk why she thought she could just come in (blah blah something?)
Rec: she thought the doctor was just going to give the meds to her.
Nur: shes SA right? (substance abuse)
Rec: yea shes one of the SA patients.
Nur: she looks like shes hard to deal with
Rec: yep...she is. i guess she thought shed just go back there and a nurse would give her (something idk?)
Nur: Psh.

omfg im like stnading right here.
there f**king talking about not only a patient in a personal sense but doing so outloud along with her medical info practically in the lobby. jesus christ. my dad got a bad vibe from these people way b4 i did and i though he was just being judgemental. he WASNT. i understood now. and then it made me think of all the times where i DID hear them talk about patients THAT OpENLY. OTHER RECEPTS. SERIOUSLY?! who knows what they say about me. im extremely positive they say something about me too. they also tlak about peoples financial state and stuff etc dx meds. etc. AT LEAST CLOSE THE HUGE GLASS DOOR. OR SOMETHING. BECAUSE EVERYBODY IN THE SMALL LOBBY ROOM CAN HERE IT.