Hello everyone,

I am a gay male and I had committed suicide 3 times when I was 18 to 25 years old. I have been diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder since 2010. From that time, I couldn't go to work because I couldn't sleep sound as I had seen shadows in the dark and I had slept a lot, approximately 13 to 17 hours per day, actually within 2010 and 2012 I had gone to bed at 23:00 and woken up at 15:00, therefore I couldn't go to work at any company at all. I had told this to my doctor and he also tried to find the medicine that didn't cause drowsy to me.

In 2013, my condition has become better as I can sleep alone in my room at night, because I no longer "feel" shadows in the dark, nor "seeing" someone looking at me in the dark (The previous years, I had to sleep with my mother or my sister). In addition to that, this year, I can also wake up earlier as some days within the month I can wake up at 6 or 7 am.

However, my problem is that I am now applying for a job as an HR officer in the hotel and I have to be at work at 7:30am, but my sleeping pattern has not been in tune yet, although it has been getting better in 2013 as mentioned above. I am really worried that I am gonna lose this job as I sometimes feel frustrated and reluctant when going to work, as I have gone to work late since I have applied for this post, and I look lethargic when I enter the workplace every morning as I feel whether my colleagues know about illness or problems...Why am I easy to feel bored with my work, in fact since I graduated from the RMIT University in 2008, I had changed 5 companies.

My doctor say it because of my illness as I am sensitive to depression and frustration and my sleeping pattern is somehow turbulent.

At the moment, I am taking quetiapine 50mg/day, Haloperidol 4mg/day, and Topiramate 400mg/day

I really want to go to work and keep the current job. Anyone can give my any advice or can share with me any similar experiences, that will be highly appreciated!

Many thanks,