I hope this isnt offending anyone. Is that a request to stop? Its turning into a book isnt it? I suppose I always have wanted to do that. I put this here for anyone interested, but mostly to any others who are searching, trying to find their way, not sure which direction they should turn, and not finding thier truth by conventional means. I dont expect anyone to copy me and Im not looking for converts. It would heal my soul in so many ways though if anyone received any good from this.