Hello restoreme
I have similar background, PTSD & dissociation with depression issues. Years ago things were really bad for me and I too was in & out of the hospital. I've had ECT twice, the first time it was fine and did help. My daughter was 6 then shes 29 now. The second time I had only had the first round when my Pdoc returned to work. She was very upset with the Pdoc's that talked me into it because I had had been in a car accident and short coma just a few months earlier and ECT is not recommended in that case. The brain trauma I had suffered was causing a lot of the severe depression at that time.
I do have memory problems but mine came after the car accident not from ECT. I do have mild TBI from that accident but it has improved greatly over time. The brain is truly very remarkable and capable of growth. I would recommend going inpatient as you are better monitored and safe, if there's any changes they can catch them early and stop treatments which will mitigate any loss. Also ECT is much more controlled now with the drugs and better equipment if you are monitored the loss is often temporary. I am not able to take antidepressants(they cause mania & psychosis) and I don't tolerate anti psychotics so the ECT I had the first time was a life saver. Between the ECT, psych drug experiences & the spinal surgery I recently had I'd have to say the spinal surgery & psych drugs were the much scarier experience.
Best of luck with your journey to recovery. 
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