So the guy finally got back to me...He said that long distance relationships have always been bad for him in the past, and that ours would be the furthest one for him (He lives near Chicago and I live near Cleveland), so...yeah =/. He said that he felt like a bastard for what he said and did when we met, and felt terrible about not texting me as much lately as he'd been unsure how to bring up the issue. (I'm kind of happy about that, I feel as though he SHOULD feel kind of bad. He definitely hurt me and even though I know he didn't mean to, the damage is done.) He did say he wants to keep talking to me though, so there's that. I don't want to lose him as a friend even if I can't be with him in a romantic way. I appreciate the fact that he was honest with me and I can see where he's coming from (Long distance relationships hardly ever seem to work out well for anyone), but it still feels terrible. I really, really like this guy. I might even love him (Though I certainly haven't told him that. That word gets tossed around so carelessly these days that I don't want to use it unless I really am 100% certain). I've just known him for so long and have been such good friends with him even if it was only online. I just feel like the feelings I have for him have been developing for so long that it will take awhile for me to feel the same about anyone else. I guess that's part of the feeling of heartbreak, though. Ugh I've already cried twice about this since getting his text last night and am starting to cry again as I recount it. It's good to let the emotions out, though, terrible as they are.

I have been thinking lately about how I'd like to move a bit further away from home after graduating college (Not just because of him. Though he might be a factor, I just have a general desire to break away from my family and feel that I need some distance in order to do that). That won't be for another two years though. I did mention something about that to him, asking if he ever thought we had a chance at anything and hinting that I could move closer to him after graduation (In a totally non-committal way. Just tossing the idea around). Told him I didn't want any false hope but was just curios about his thoughts on the matter. Will await his response =/

Personally I feel that if I really am able to move closer to him and we are both available and still interested in one another at that point, great. If not, then maybe it wasn't meant to be. I don't really believe in "fate" but it is what it is...Hopefully he feels a similar way.