T,

I didn't want to talk about my past SUI attempt 5 yrs ago. And you kept insisting, so I relented. And during our session I dissociated because it was easier that way. But afterwards, all of my emotions from back then hit me full force. So much so that it made me feel the same way again. This is your fault. I didn't want to talk about it. And don't say that it's not healthy to bury my emotions. I am not stupid. I know that. But I buried them for a reason and now I am in PAIN. So I am dissociating again. I don't want to feel anything. I am a mess. Oh, and pulling this **** only a month before you are scheduled to leave? That's f***ed up.

You will leave and I will feel gutted. Even more so than I do now.