@ultramar, growlycat: I've gone through a lot of "labels" in my life, and they've done nothing but help me grow and learn about myself. They're starting points for internet searches, combing through book indexes, finding support groups. I've been 5 months with this T, and I'll be coming out of it little better than I was going in. I'm not necessarily looking for a diagnosis, but I do want something concrete, even if it's coping skills (which I've asked for and never really got), suggestions on improving my quality of life (they seem to be content letting me grope around in the dark here), book suggestions, group suggestions... really, suggestions of any sort. They've given me no meaningful, proactive direction to pursue, diagnosis or not, and that's why I feel lost.

Everything I bring up, ask, or tell them ("I self medicate with alcohol" "I had a panic attack on the train and I wanted to die" "I'm thinking about staging and intervention for my father so I can try and salvage my relationship with him") always comes back around to venting about the people in my life and being told that it's ok to feel frustrated. I know it's ok to feel frustrated. But feeling frustrated, and having my frustration validated, isn't helping me get anywhere.

I know that I'm a person that's more then my constituent parts, but that doesn't negate the fact that I have constituent parts!