Bless your heart. What you need is a big, gentle hug. I wish I could give you one.

Do you KNOW what happened when you were little, or did you block it out? If you know, it would certainly be cleansing, and HEALTHY to tell your therapist about it. It would stop the horrors, even tho it would be painful to tell. If you could find the strength to tell, please do.

If you can't remember, it may take some time in therapy before you do. I'm so glad you ARE in therapy. Please don't stop therapy, even tho you think it isn't helping right now. When I was in therapy, there was a time I too thought I'd hit the wall -- but I hadn't. There was more to come, and I'm sure there is for you too.

God bless you my friend and please stay with us, okay? We're behind you 100%. Keep us informed, okay? And you might want to stop in on the Survivors of Abuse forum -- believe me, that forum could help you! Hugs, Lee