Since grade 10 I've had stressed induced seizures which means that after I have a panic attack(from a stressful situation work or family) I panic and then have seizures after words (the most is 3 or 4 in a period of a couple days). It's been going on for 6 years and has slowed down to once a month, like a strange cycle I can't stop. I keep thinking about what if I have them, what will happen. When I panic I try to get away from people not wanting them to see, not wanting attention. I still live with my parents and have a part time job. I do want to go to school next year and plan too but when ever I have a panic attack or a 'fake' seizure. My mother always yells and tells me that I am mental, will never have a normal life, never have a boyfriend, never go to school. That is why I'm still living at home. I've been talking to someone about my problems and when I told them about the way my parents react, they told me to keep my voice calm and ask them to not yell.
It doesn't work, they can't understand and are constantly getting annoyed with me, they do not believe that I will ever get out of this, that I will never go back to school, because I will panic and fall about. I will be stuck with them forever.
It hurts because I know they are wrong. It's painful and annoying when I have panic attacks and seizures but I don't think that will stop me. I've been called names to the lowest with them(I even wrote a list down to show them later) and I have no where to go until next year. My mother says she knows that I do this on purpose for attention and that she tells her friends at work that I'm mental and need help. I keep telling her that it is not there problem and that , that doesn't help at all. She thinks I'm seeking attention. I'm not I don't want attention on me and so I try to hide these attacks from her since if If tell her she will get angry.
I just need advice on how to handle the situation. Will it get better if I move away? What should I do to get my parents to stop getting fed up with me and making me feel so crazy, and mental. I feel like crying everyday because of it. Help please! any advice!