I'm sorry you picked up smoking (I just quit a few years ago so I know how addictive they are). Maybe you would be helped by seeing a nutritionist & therapist. I'm starting a doc supervised weight loss program in a few weeks that also incorporates a nutritionist, counselor & fitness specialist. I also started back with my "old" therapist who I hadn't seen in about 4 years. I've been bingeing & need some outside help. I can't do it alone. Hope you feel better soon.--Suzy