I am in the middle of a breakdown and my voices and hallucinations are really bad. I have already taken the max of my anxiety meds and had nothing left. Everyone was screaming so loud I had to hold my head. Just uncontrollable orders to kill myself. I don't want to die but when they get this loud only pain makes them stop. I burned up both my wrists and they are now cleaned and bandaged. But I don't know how to explain this to my boyfriend. This kind of thing really upsets him. The commands have stopped but the breakdown is still going. I know I should not use this to control my voices but I have never found anything else. Tried the rubber band trick but it doesn't work. Only cuts or burns make them all go quiet. Dunno what to do to stop. Been this way since I was a teen even with therapy. Does anybody else struggle with self harm during psychosis?