I personally tend to believe that it's all a spectrum and they all suck one way or another. I'm technically diagnosed Bipolar II but I don't live in depression 90% of the time... far from it. Maybe 50%... like that's any better... lol. I also have had a manic episode... but... my pdoc likes to ignore that part of my story... anyway... moving on....

It all sucks no matter where you are.

I wouldn't get too caught up in the labeling of it, even though it IS important on the medical side.

You really should see a professional psychologist or psychiatrist that could better tell you what's going on.

As Christina said, it's treatable and is not a death sentence by any means. Good luck!