Hello congratulations on becoming 18. I have posted some hotlines foe children and adults onthe site. Use then if you would like to ta;lk to someone. I would highly suggest that you try to see a therapist about your concerns, of not being able to feel like you have anyone in your life,. NAMI and DBSA also have support groups that may be helpful for you as well, and they also are fun and plan nice activities to attend as well. Ihope the best for you, and I kniow you can feel better with the right help. Take care Soidhonia