Today was... Ugh... Just filled with worry. I'm so nervous about this pregnancy going wrong I don't even want to read the information and magazines they've been giving me. My emotions are so mixed... I don't know how I'll deal with it either way. I wish so badly that I could take my medications. I'm actually starting to freak myself out again. I'm hardly sleeping, and when I do, my nightmares are back full force. I'm waking up daily with headaches... Things just are not going well.