Hun, when depression takes over it can make everything seem really really bad... I call it lies.... depression lies to us .. it tells us that we don't matter. it tells us that nobody cares...that we are unworthy....

And ya know what?We can beat depression...medications.. therapy... support groups like this one .. all tools to help take charge of our lives in spite of depression.

My father was an alcoholic but he never thought so of course.... alcohol is such a powerful all consuming drug... it transforms people into someone we don't know and don't want to know...maybe you could check out Al-Anon... for people who live with an alcoholic in their life...

Things will get better...this is a rough patch in the road... you aren't alone by any means. .you have friends here who care...
Wishing you the best... Faith