So my mind seems to finally be at ease, at least for now, no doubt due to the abilify. but now i seem to be moving and speaking at an ultra-slow pace, so much so that it is quite noticeable to those around me. Even my students have asked me why i'm moving so slow (they're not exactly a tactful bunch!). I also feel like i am having muscle weakness/stiffness.

so now the question is, do I continue on as a robot with a sound mind, or do I risk the rollercoaster again so i can have a sound body?

it seems truly unfair that this is what we must choose between so often.

i will be talking to my pdoc about this this week hopefully. whenever she can fit me in. dunno what can be done besides maybe backing down the dose a little. maybe i can live with the less extreme mood swings that come with the lower dose...better than the craziness of unmedicated me!